...

Emotionally drained because i have stepped further from it.
I have not trained well to reach for it.
It would have shielded me but I let go very easily.
I must have not been grabbing on too firmly as I thought I did.

Eman is all you have when you leave this world. Therefore, its all that counts. Everything else is fleeting.

The trouble is when you don't feel you have it under control- When you feel its easier to just give up.

But the truth is, it really isn't.

The truth is, striving is all you have control over in this world.

poverty!

{الشيطان يعدكم الفقر ويأمركم بالفحشاء}

I cannot begin to explain the relevance of this verse in our lives... from where do I start?
For some, its the story of their lives...
He tells us that if we don't do this or that we're going to be poor for the rest of our lives, and sometimes it includes extremes... think of the extreme haram jobs and how they are justified...

Can you imagine the magnitude of subliminal messages the shaytan sends every minute.... many of our action's roots are results of unconscious decisions and whispers from the shaytan.
Stealing, gambling and transgression... education and working in haram settings and fields... and the list continues...

Look at people who love the dunya, examine their excitement level when they're engaged in something so dunya-filled as opposed to their expressions when learning about the akhirah... because their goal is materialistic and financial... the excitement level is so explicit.

Its overwhelming sometimes, when you're out in the world... people fighting and pushing to attain something of the dunya...

this verse comes to life.. {يعلمون ظاهرا من الحياة الدنيا وهم عن الآخرة هم غافلون}

the fight to get to school, physically and over time... to attain knowledge... 'knowledge is power' they think and say.... but its 'knowledge of the akhirah that is power'.

the shaytan tells us if you don't do these things, if you don't compete for the dunya you are in loss, and if you make hijrah you will be poor.

but Musa said {رب اهدني سواء السبيل} .. he had no idea where he was heading... and he came back with work, a family and wahiy.

think.

(my) words...

...becase days end without justice prevailing... the final day will come.


Between the Capital and the period I lay truth not dirt.


I'm a fan of your worst enemies: those who convey truth.


،،walking asleep amongst the dead,,


choose Qur'an over intoxication and hours of sleep!

...~...~..... ,, ... ,, ....

tall.. Amidst ruins

its height amazes me
amidts ruins, it rises
peacefully
maintains truth
extending to day one
everlasting

its my hearts ink
that writes
that clings to you
every day
a sign
shines brightly
to remind me
that you're truth

amidst pain
i manage to find happiness
a reason to go on
real patience is found
in my 'deen'
no myths, lies and claimed power
no heirarchies
just plain goodness
in the hearts of its preachers

amidst chaos
to one God
we call
with no so-called mediators
leave us be
let me cry
in secret
for he's my Lord
just as much

from the east
to the farthest west
for everyone
in every newborn
its seeds lie
but is destroyed
with corrupt beliefs
of surroundings
like a storm
it sweeps away
a beautiful bud...

only to, sometimes, start life
elsewhere
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