Repent

كِتَاب ‏ ‏تَفْسِيرِ الْقُرْآنِ ‏ ‏الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيمِ ‏ ‏اسْمَانِ مِنْ الرَّحْمَةِ الرَّحِيمُ وَالرَّاحِمُ بِمَعْنًى وَاحِدٍ كَالْعَلِيمِ وَالْعَالِمِ ‏. ‏ ‏بَاب ‏ ‏الْجَلَاءَ ‏ ‏الْإِخْرَاجُ مِنْ أَرْضٍ إِلَى أَرْضٍ ‏ 4558 - ‏ ‏حَدَّثَنَا ‏ ‏مُحَمَّدُ بْنُ عَبْدِ الرَّحِيمِ ‏ ‏حَدَّثَنَا ‏ ‏سَعِيدُ بْنُ سُلَيْمَانَ ‏ ‏حَدَّثَنَا ‏ ‏هُشَيْمٌ ‏ ‏أَخْبَرَنَا ‏ ‏أَبُو بِشْرٍ ‏ ‏عَنْ ‏ ‏سَعِيدِ بْنِ جُبَيْرٍ ‏ ‏قَالَ قُلْتُ ‏ ‏لِابْنِ عَبَّاسٍ ‏ ( ‏سُورَةُ ‏ ‏التَّوْبَةِ ‏ ‏قَالَ ‏ ‏التَّوْبَةُ ‏ ‏هِيَ ‏ ‏الْفَاضِحَةُ ‏ ‏مَا زَالَتْ تَنْزِلُ وَمِنْهُمْ وَمِنْهُمْ حَتَّى ظَنُّوا أَنَّهَا لَنْ تُبْقِيَ أَحَدًا مِنْهُمْ إِلَّا ذُكِرَ فِيهَا قَالَ قُلْتُ سُورَةُ ‏ ‏الْأَنْفَالِ ‏ ‏قَالَ نَزَلَتْ فِي ‏ ‏بَدْرٍ ‏ ‏قَالَ قُلْتُ سُورَةُ ‏ ‏الْحَشْرِ ‏ ‏قَالَ نَزَلَتْ فِي ‏ ‏بَنِي النَّضِيرِ ‏ ). اللهم استرنا

حلية طالب العلم مختصرا

http://saaid.net/book/17/8739.pdf

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Emotionally drained because i have stepped further from it.
I have not trained well to reach for it.
It would have shielded me but I let go very easily.
I must have not been grabbing on too firmly as I thought I did.

Eman is all you have when you leave this world. Therefore, its all that counts. Everything else is fleeting.

The trouble is when you don't feel you have it under control- When you feel its easier to just give up.

But the truth is, it really isn't.

The truth is, striving is all you have control over in this world.